Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I too have had dreams about one of my PP. I thought this guy was so lovely, genuine and have a deep affection for him. Rushing to meet the postie and feeling let down when I don't receive mail. I can't find anything at all about his crime in the public domain, and every time I post his details to the Department of Correction where he is located it is blocked. I am beginning to fear the worst now, possibly sex act. Still, I wont abandon him. His mail always brings me great pleasure and he writes beautiful poetry. The problem I have is that the undertone of his mail recently has been getting legal representation and money put into his account. He hasn't asked me directly, but he keeps to referring to his brother letting him down with finances. I am already going in this direction with a PP from Human Writes and this is starting to upset me somewhat. I have a huge heart and want to help everybody, but I am now feeling hurt. I am not sure if I can handle his crime if it was to involve children, please can anyone offer me advice. Nette

LOL I have done that too, guess we must share the same type of dreams. Actually, being stupid and lazy because I could look it up on the internet, what is a curendera? Sounds very interesting.

its like a healer /kinda like a witch... but in a good way .

This may sound crazy, but my loved one has a sentence with to life on the end of it, and the dream I most have is him showing up at my door, with full prison gear, shackles, jumper, and shoes. It's more of a nightmare.

I kissed him in my dream and it was so special, it felt so good! That's when I knew I was in love.

My P.P that i asked to marry me, once i was out, declined me thrice... It hurt me somewhat, but i kept at it N-e ways, we've been married over 7+ yrs now, and she's like my twin... She had 'visions' of "someone", and knew it was me when we met for the first time. We argue, yell, but always make-up... Life is rough in there, and re-adjusting is even ROUGHER !! It felt like i was 8 different people all at one time, in the samebody and mind. The Spirit was seperatated, and i can say it took some time to get myself back together.
Jealousy inside... There's something that never came-up. I knew that she had her life out there, and she, mine inside. i guess all people are different, and have thier own fears, visiting isn't a marriage to another. That's a relationship, and a distant one at that... There are no 'controls', as they are set by the Prison System upon everyone involved in any type of relationship. I can say that i cared and worried at times more than others, and for her safety and well-being. Not jealously...
I spent three consecutive YEARS in SOLITARY CONFINEMENT, on ADMINISTRATIVE CONFINEMENT due to my violence towards the Gaurds, but i learned to curb that, and not for her, but for me firstly, then she followed in the wake that i created for myself... i couldn't do for her what i couldn't do for myself. [...That's how i learned to LOVE]. i also learned to cooperate w/ authority, and 'deal' w/ my rage towards them, as it was only eating ME up. They went home at the end of the day to their loved-ones, i did not. reality can be a mo-fo, but once i learned i couldn't control anyone but myself, life got easier every day, and that holds true today, eight yrs. after release of over a decade inside...
I can only give my experiences from myself, i can't tell another how to think, feel, or act. That's not 'love', that's control.

Oh, i did have dreams of distant faces, as well as voices, and they are/were correct; There is 'some sort of connection'...
Only one was constant, and we're still married...

As far as hinting at finances goes, and court costs... i would 'suggest' you get in touch w/ ___'s Attorney to 'verify' said fees. I KNOW of many scams in there, and that's the most prominent one... If ___ is not willing to send you the necessary 411 (info) then i would not respond back to that portion of said letter, and if another 'angle' pops-up, then u know 4 sure what the deal is. Most have exhausted ALL their appellate rihgts, and know they gotta survive somehow...By not sending the necessary 411 on the case, Attorney, and already filed Petitions to said Court (s), then in my opinion... [...It's a scam]. Your only attempting to help ___ , right ? So why wouldn't ___ send you a free copy that the Court's PROVIDE to everyone upon sentencing, and if ___ claims it was 'mailed out', then why not give the Case # attatched to said Case ? If ___ really NEEDS, not 'wants' help, then ___ shall provide said Reference material, # to said case. Only my experience from inside, as well as my 'opinion' on that topic...

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Originally Posted by kevinsprncss

Hey everyone!

This is going to sound totally off the wall and I guess I'm moreso directing this at the ladies who are in relationships with their pp's like myself.

Have you ever had a dream at night where you feel like you have traveled to whatever prison your LO is in and feel like you go to sleep (and no I don't mean have sex) with your man?

Last night was one of those nights for me, it felt like I was really there and K's holding me tight.

Anyone else ever experience something like this?

Not the sleeping thing, but I had a VERY vivid dream where the phone rang, it was Edwin...it wasn't the recording "you have a call...blah..." it was him saying, babe you gatta come pick me up ok? But it was like he was down the street! Lol I ran out of the house, grabbing keys n as I got in my truck I thot sh/t he needs clothes! Lol I woke up as I was pulling into the mall. Wish it had continued!!!