Hi everyone, being away for a while but still reading all your interesting posts, wow alot been going on. Also a little question as saw a few posts b4 I left about alot of people suffering from depression. Does anyone think it has a little to do with us getting a bit sucked into our pp's world? I would like to say I have been fighting it on and off for 3 years. Medications seems to be the only cure but when you take meds for a few months you feel great and think you are strong enough to cope and go off them, for a while you feel great and bang it's back before you know it and than you feel a failure. Please anyone taking meds for depression, please consult you doctor b4 you decide to reduce or stop your meds.

Another subject I would like to approach is our moderators, I experienced a little misunderstanding with them but after a short time found them not only to be right in what they say but very forgiving and very VERY sensible. It may annoy someone of us to get bleeped but TRUST me on this, it is only in our best interests as users.

Look forward to sharing experiences with all of you.

My daughter who is 16 is going threw that right now she was doing great for a few months she was still taking her mood stablizer and her anti deppressent medication her thought went from self harm to aggressive thoughts which is not like her right now she is in an adolescent unit getting her medicaton ajusted 10 day stay .She has Bi-poler .I can relate to what your saying with depression you really have to watch taking on too much negativity ,watch the music you listen to etc.....welcome back hon

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its a hard thing for other people to understand isnt it?

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Yes I agree that unless you have been through it or had dealings with it. no one understands apart from saying ''snap out of it'' or ''get a grip'' I feel like it creeps up without any warning and you are as helpless as someone who had an accident and broke both arms ands legs. I am lucky here in Belgium that doctors are very understanding and before any therapy is given they get you straight on strong medication to get yourself up a bit. They put me on Xanax to calm down, seroxat in the mornings but that takes afew weeks to kick in than a super antidepressant called remergon which pulls you out of the deepest hole within about 3-4 days but the side effect is being a zombie when u are new on it and weight gain which to me was good as originally i was very underweight due to depression. I also think depression is always looked upon as a failure on your own part which is not always the case. I have so much sympathy when I read messages here if people going thru it cos it is a lonely old feeling. I hope your daughter gets better soon and just be there for her. take care

I myself have been suffering from depression for about 13 years off and on, the last year was the worst but now that my pps have become part of my life, it is way better. Amazing how some people locked away can make such a difference.

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Life throws curve balls, get battin and stay strong! Momof6

Thank you luca they have her on litheum now along with tropomax and Effexer thats alote of medication for a little girl .

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momo and luca i think there are alote of people on here that have clinical deppression just from going threw the posts its been mentioned several times.Hugs to all of you who are

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I have struggled with bipolar disorder since 1998. I have been on about 20 different meds; currently taking Wellbutrin, Lamictal, and Haldohl which has done wonders for me. I have gained about 40 lbs since I first started taking meds, and am self conscious about it. I am lucky to have a penpal who doesnt mind, and helps me with my self esteem. In fact, if I say something bad about myself, he says I owe him a picture; and I hate taking pics, so I try to watch my mouth. So far, I owe him four, and he owes me one.

This has been the best year since 1998, and I know that it is because of the new meds, and my penpal.

Jennifer

Hi Jennifer want to reply and bump my topic as can't believe how many of us here suffer from depression and what a lonely illness it is, everyone brings you chicken soup when u have a cold but stays clear when u say hey Im depressed and down in the dumps. As for weight gain can't hepp with pounds but b4 I started Remergon I was so underweight I looked liked someone who just walk out of Dachau and within 3 months I went from 45kilo to 65 and now sitting steadily at 70 kilo still a bit tubby but guess what I like it after been called anorexic for so long. I imagine now I will gain a few more pounds as doctor today put me back on all my meds and really let rip at me for going off all of they without consulting him first, left the surgery like a scolded school kids but already starting to feel better just by admitting '' hey it's back, that nasty dark cloud and it's ok it's getting treated and I'm not alone. My heart goes out to anyone else who has it really it does. My dad had it bad to so guess I am doomed, may have been the reason I ranted and raved b4 on wap, oh chicago you won't like that as you seemed to enjoy my ranting and raving, lol love to all you ladies and gents and everyone has brigtened up my day so much and thank god I was allowed to rejoin, never appreciated that this site could be used for support. kisses coming through site to everyone here, and keep bumping (love my new word from dragonfly) this in case someone else out there needs to know they are not alone, nite nite all and sweet dreams and look after your pps

jm thats the hard part some of the medications do make you gain alote of weight deperkot when my daughter was on it did it for her .Its like you feel better emotionaly but as everyone says boy you've gotten big your self asteem starts to fall its rough i know But the weight gain is worth it compared to feeling like your in a dark hole you just cant climb out of.

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