While this topic might not have anything to do on first glance with writing to my pp's, it does somehow influence it a little bit.
You see, I'm socially inept. Well, maybe not inept. But I am an introvert. Small talk terrifies me. I'd rather eat my lunch at my desk, not disturbed by anyone and not having to see if there's a table free with people that I know good enough to eat and talk with. Ask me how I'm doing and I either respond with a quivering "Good" or I just stare at you
As I look back on the years that we have. I see more pain then love. More foolishness then trust. More lies then truth. But then I ask myself why so long? Why did I allow so much? These are the things that go through my mind. The times you hurt me as nobody else could have. When you pushed me to the limit of insanity. Making me believe that I was crazy. Why would you do that. I am glad that I am having this moment to reflect. I am glad that I am feeling these emotions. They will help me break free
I have one: We've been at each other for sometime now. Communication has been at an all time low between us. We've allowed outside sources to take control of the very fabric of our relationship. I fear that unless something is done soon that our days as husband & wife are numbered. I pull into the driveway and see the light on in the bedroom. I want to go in but I don't want to go in. I get out of the car and say to myself... this is going to be the last day I play room mate with my wife. I
~I Once Knew Love~
whispers in the dark
kisses in the palm
nuzzling in the neck
wrapped from behind
ear to chest
Breakups hurt, but losing someone who doesn't respect and appreciate you is actually a GAIN, not a LOSS! You'll get through this, only if you continue to PUSH for your salvation and sanity. Sex should never be at the top of a relationship's priority list. Good sex can fix a bad argument but will never cure a bad relationship. At the end of the day, after you put yourself back together, just know that your future is screaming at you to let go and move on. You deserve and are worthy of only the best.