http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/ en Sat, 25 May 2013 02:51:50 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/images/misc/rss.jpg http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/ http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/68-who-am-i-really.html Wed, 31 Dec 2008 05:54:51 GMT Who am I? It’s a question I find myself asking on a regular basis. But is there an answer to this question I am asking? Is it my profession?... Who am I?

It’s a question I find myself asking on a regular basis.

But is there an answer to this question I am asking?

Is it my profession?
My age?
My gender?
My race?
My personality traits?
My wealth or lack thereof?

Is it all of these things combined together?

Even after I think about each thing in particular and list my character traits, my ambitions, my faults, my priorities, material
things that I have accumulated over the past 21 years of my life, and so on in my head, I still have no clue who I am.

I guess in the real world, you just put on a mask and costume and become whoever you want to be.

Although I don’t understand why, because maybe then you fool yourself into thinking that you are this stranger.

I’m afraid that I’m guilty of this and many others in this world are as well.

I would hate to think that I’m not only a stranger to myself, but that everyone I have known in my lifetime are all strangers to me as well.

So when do we shed this mask and costume and become who we truly are?

When do I get to be myself and find out what that is exactly?

It’s a question left unanswered so far.

I’ve changed my mask so many times that I’m lost as to who I really am and it breaks my heart to think that this may be something that I will struggle with for a long time to come.

I am beyond doubt lost as to who I was and what I’ve become.

And only I can find myself again. ]]> Corey.am http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/68-who-am-i-really.html http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/60-lucky-us.html Sun, 30 Nov 2008 03:12:57 GMT So...I get to go and get blood work done! Considering that I have two phobias...The process is NOT going to be pretty! Hahaha

1) Needles - I'm terrified of them!
2) Veins - I can't have people touch my veins, on the inside of my elbow, wrists and behind my knee caps, I call them my knee pits haha!

Oh well lol, I think I've gotten Billy (the boyfriend) sick as well. I feel so bad, because I have the weekend off...Well I have crap loads of homework, but still. Poor Billy has to work all weekend.

Ahhhh the winter season! Lots of illness going around that people just love to share! I just hope this doesn't go back and fourth between the two of us!

Well nothing else going on at all right now, same old, same old. School and sleep! What an exciting life I know! I don't know how I handle it all!

Alright then,
Until next time...You know what I'll be doing!

:book1: :book1: :book1: :book1: ]]> Corey.am http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/60-lucky-us.html http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/59-almost-done.html Fri, 28 Nov 2008 16:19:37 GMT Alright...Well as it stands I only have 2 weeks left and have to accomplish quite a bit: 1) Case Study 2) 5 page essay 3) 10 page essay 4)... Alright...Well as it stands I only have 2 weeks left and have to accomplish quite a bit:
1) Case Study
2) 5 page essay
3) 10 page essay
4) Presentation
5) Build a website
6) Edit a memo and rewrite
7) Integrated Marketing Communications Exam
8) Test

I think that's about it...I knocked off two case studies and an essay, as well as a test this past week!!!! I think I'm just gonna have to motor through as much as I can this weekend and see where it gets me. If I can finish a lot early, that would be great! Then all that will be left are the tests! :chest:

I'm still awaiting my first reply from a pp...It should be arriving next week. Then I might have something more to talk about, other than my crappy moods and school haha.

Well I'm off to hit the books!

See ya! :wave2: ]]> Corey.am http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/59-almost-done.html http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/58-bored.html Fri, 28 Nov 2008 03:02:52 GMT Alright, well it's Thursday Nov. 27th and here I am...Bored as ever! I think something is seriously wrong with me! I've been feeling so nauseous and I can't seem to get rid of a horrible head ache. All I do is sleep and go to school. I have no energy to do anything anymore and it's driving me nuts. I dunno, I've been having a lot of health and personal problems for the past 2 years now and I guess it's finally catching up with me. I can barely force myself to get out of bed and face the day anymore. Luckily I have a new place to get it all out! Just how I'm feeling...Write it down and get it out of my head. I mean I have enough to worry about being swamped with school work and all, so it'll be nice to clear my head you know?
Anyways I'm pretty tired, so I think I might just pop in a DVD and call it a day.

Until Next Time

-Corey :coffee: ]]> Corey.am http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/58-bored.html http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/57-poetry.html Sun, 23 Nov 2008 02:47:52 GMT Just two poems I've written

HOME
My essence has now vanished,
Our love is now a war.
I look back now,
With much regret.
My head,
Uncertain of what the future holds.
And so I breathe it all in,
And never exhale.
A hole forms in my heart,
Growing larger every day; in this cold dark place.
Bleeding internally,
For all eternity.
I’ve lost myself.
Trapped in a stranger,
Everything unknown,
I am stuck with this vile existence,
A life of unbearable means,
Until you take my hand,
And guide me back home.


FREEDOM
Innocent child,
Not yet broken.
She lies unclothed and exposed in the crowd.
They shatter her very being,
And engrave deep wounds into her soul.
Her innocence bleeds out onto the gravel.
Beautiful red streams of her essence.
The wounds leave scars, and hate begins to flow through her veins.
Empty eyes,
Numb soul,
And she now believes them.
She stares at the reflection of this stranger with disgust.
The darkness descends upon her soul.
The past takes grip of her throat.
Inside she screams,
Silence.
The grip begins to tighten,
She realizes that she has lost the fight.
Her final breath releases the person she has become.
As she lie there,
Her corpse now cold and limp,
Tranquility overcomes her soul.
She is free.

- Corey.A.M. :wave2: ]]> Corey.am http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/57-poetry.html http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/56-horrible-weekend-ahead.html Sun, 23 Nov 2008 02:27:38 GMT *Ahhh...A weekend of being ridiculously sick and not even being able to relax thanks to the workload that college has to offer me right now. I... Ahhh...A weekend of being ridiculously sick and not even being able to relax thanks to the workload that college has to offer me right now. I wouldn't mind having the flu if I didn't have so much to do.

Who I am I kidding? Nobody likes to get sick! I guess it's just double this weekend, sick with no rest.

I am going to be so thankful for the holiday break coming up. Have a chance to get home and see the friends and family. It'll be a nice change from all of the chaos! That's for sure!

For now, I just have to suck it up and get the work done and soon enough the relaxation time will come. I think I'll sleep for a week!

Alright well I guess it's back to work until the hubby gets home with some meds and food. The upside of being ill...He waits on ME hand and foot for a change haha!

:book1: ]]> Corey.am http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/56-horrible-weekend-ahead.html http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/54-11-19-08.html Wed, 19 Nov 2008 17:03:56 GMT Well it's been about a week, I know these things take time haha. I guess I'm just a little impatient because I've wanted to do this for so long and now that I finally am...I just want it to happen quickly lol. I'm just getting excited! I'm just scared that I won't get a replay at all. Oh well, I'm sure that I'll make some great friends on this site and maybe make a few pen pals while I'm at it. The worst thing that could happen is nothing, then I'd just be where I started right? Haha.

I guess I'm just super stressed with all that's going on in my life right now and just want something good to happen. Between work, college and home life. It's non-stop! Ahhh I don't mind though, only 2 more years of it and I'll have a career hopefully! Just gotta keep working at it!

Well that's all that's going on in my head right now.

Until neexxxttt time! ]]> Corey.am http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/54-11-19-08.html http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/51-new.html Wed, 12 Nov 2008 16:45:11 GMT So...Last night, I became a member. I write my first letter and hope to hear back soon. I think this site is amazing and it's a great thing to do. Everybody seems to write off all these inmates as horrible people. Truth is, they're human beings too and being lonely is never a good thing, no matter where you are. I'm always up for meeting new people, from all different walks of life. I'm just happy that I finally did this, I've wanted to for years now and it feels great that I actually have now. Alright, well I'm sitting here on campus and have just noticed it's time for class, so I guess it's goodbye for now!:baeh: ]]> Corey.am http://www.writeaprisoner.com/vbforum/blogs/corey-am/51-new.html