Disapointment and hope all at once...
Posted 09-02-2008 at 10:12 PM by chicksta
Well... I have to admit, this time I'm not even really too sure where to start. I'm disapointed that some people think that I'm out for revenge more than 'for the good of others' (If you don't know what I'm talking about - go and read the 'reporting a pen pal' thread in the forum)... I really do think its a sad world when people don't want to try and improve the state of the world for the better just because its 'difficult' or it won't get anywhere... FromDusk raised a very good point, and I think shes right - maybe my complaint will get no where short term - but maybe when he tries this again and someone else is strong and brave enough to complain, then my complaint will finally make a difference. Have you ever watched a crime show on TV where they say that even the smallest pieces of information can help break a case? I believe this in everything, just because it may seem insignificant right now or pointless, doesn't mean that its so. Every little piece of informatin can help, just like a jigsaw puzzle - every piece counts, and sometimes its that one piece that makes the picture make sense.
Of course there is a part of me that 'wants' revenge, that wants him to realise what he's done to me is wrong and cruel - but I'm not stupid either, I seriously doubt that is going to happen. He is who is he is, and onviously he has got away with this kind of behavour before, so he thinks he can just continue until he gets what he wants. I don't think what I'm doing is 'harrassing' anyone, or trying to cause trouble - I'm trying to save trouble! Maybe it won't seem like that to everyone, and everyone is entitled to their own opinion and sees the situation from a different point of view. But I'm not going to give up on this just because not everyone agrees with me.
A big part of the reason I got into writing to inmates in the first place, is because I wanted to help 'improve' the quality of some peoples lives... Even the people that not everyone thinks is 'worthy', and aside from this instance, I've found it to be a very rewarding and interesting journey - one I would love for others to experience. And for those people who are wondering "should I or shouldn't I write to someone?" and are worried of getting played - I want there to be LESS game players out there, to make it easier for the rest of the genuine people out there.
Now, putting that aside, heres a bit of an update on the situation with this not so nice penpal. I have, needless to say, calmed down somewhat from yesterday. Those letters just arrived on a day when I was already 'on edge' and those just seemed to tip the scale.
I have contacted the Australian government regarding some feathers that he sent me in his last letters - and I'm glad I did. They will be destroyed so that no dieseases can infect my country for future generations, and I'm glad I did. They told me that I was to advise this person not to send that kind of thing anymore, because he isn't a repeat offender so its not much of a concern to them at this stage - which is very fair enough.
I've also contacted the DOC and let them know about his suicidal state, because almost a half a page of writing in yesterdays letter was about how much he thinks about wanting to die... And as I stated on that thread, I feel much better know that he is being monitored now, because having someone kill themselves is not something I want to blame myself for emotionally - this way I know that I have done everything within my power to help.
I'm going to stop this blog here, and I'll write again when I have more of an update....
Of course there is a part of me that 'wants' revenge, that wants him to realise what he's done to me is wrong and cruel - but I'm not stupid either, I seriously doubt that is going to happen. He is who is he is, and onviously he has got away with this kind of behavour before, so he thinks he can just continue until he gets what he wants. I don't think what I'm doing is 'harrassing' anyone, or trying to cause trouble - I'm trying to save trouble! Maybe it won't seem like that to everyone, and everyone is entitled to their own opinion and sees the situation from a different point of view. But I'm not going to give up on this just because not everyone agrees with me.
A big part of the reason I got into writing to inmates in the first place, is because I wanted to help 'improve' the quality of some peoples lives... Even the people that not everyone thinks is 'worthy', and aside from this instance, I've found it to be a very rewarding and interesting journey - one I would love for others to experience. And for those people who are wondering "should I or shouldn't I write to someone?" and are worried of getting played - I want there to be LESS game players out there, to make it easier for the rest of the genuine people out there.
Now, putting that aside, heres a bit of an update on the situation with this not so nice penpal. I have, needless to say, calmed down somewhat from yesterday. Those letters just arrived on a day when I was already 'on edge' and those just seemed to tip the scale.
I have contacted the Australian government regarding some feathers that he sent me in his last letters - and I'm glad I did. They will be destroyed so that no dieseases can infect my country for future generations, and I'm glad I did. They told me that I was to advise this person not to send that kind of thing anymore, because he isn't a repeat offender so its not much of a concern to them at this stage - which is very fair enough.
I've also contacted the DOC and let them know about his suicidal state, because almost a half a page of writing in yesterdays letter was about how much he thinks about wanting to die... And as I stated on that thread, I feel much better know that he is being monitored now, because having someone kill themselves is not something I want to blame myself for emotionally - this way I know that I have done everything within my power to help.
I'm going to stop this blog here, and I'll write again when I have more of an update....
Total Comments 2
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 |  i don't judge sweetheart i can feel your pain and sadness about what has happent the only thing you want is ........nobody get hurt like you did because of this man. good luck with all your doing xxx whiterose. |
Posted 09-04-2008 at 08:19 AM by whiterose  |
| |  Thank you Whiterose  that really means alot to me You've always been so kind and supportive, and it means alot! |
| Posted 09-05-2008 at 12:27 AM by chicksta |
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