No, I wasn't on His visitation list. He is known as a cold, heartless person. I think He keeps up that front to others but for some reason He began to open up to me. He shares his deepest feelings, remorse, pain, guilt and fear. We have talked and He has cried. But, I never dreamed He would want me there on that day. That is something I would never, ever consider, but I guess I have to go. Not looking forward to it at all. Love to everybody.