Hi All. This is going to be a long post, but I'm very concerned. Here goes:

I am totally upset and speechless now at what I found on my PP/Friend. I'm so upset at him for lying to me and upset at myself (a little) that I believed him. This is a very good thing though that I have found out the truth now....before I wasted my time going to see him and even thinking about taking it to the next level. Anyways, In a letter that he wrote to me, he offered to tell me why he ended up in prison. He told me that he was so sorry about what happened. (what he did to end up in prison) He said that he was very ashamed at what he did. He told me what he had done...he said that it was the ONlY time he's been in jail or trouble. He had written to me that he was drunk one day & went to use his ATM card at the bank. He said that the card didn't work properly and he was so drunk that he went into the bank & demanded the teller to give him the money she had -- All of it. He said that he had a fake gun that he used too. Anyways...he kept saying how stupid he felt cuz he'd made that one mistake in his life & that he'd learned his lesson. He told me that it was the only time that he'd been in trouble before & just made a big mistake. Well, in some newspaper articles on the web (archives), I found that he's been in and out of jail since 1990. In other words, he is a repeat offender! In one of the articles it states that he actually robbed his own Grandmother. It says that he distracted her while his girlfriend, went searching in her purse & stole a credit card. He used it too! His own Grandmother!?!? How sad! He totally lied about what had truly happened. So, now I feel like he may be trying to "con" me. He may just be trying to get me to be with him so he can also use me & take from me whatever he can.

Now, I am very worried. He is supposed to get out this December, if not earlier. He has my home address too! OMG..I hope that he never tries anything! I'm a bit scared now. I have been having strange feelings for a while now...since he wrote to me about taking things to the next level (like for a relationship). I thought that was kind of strange to want to have after only 2 or 3 months of writing. Something just didn't sound right. Also when I got another letter, he stated that he wants me to move into his house & make a life with him. Well, I'm so glad that I found all of this out before I decided to waste my $ and time to come to visit with him. I'm upset, yes & I'm not sure what to do....should I write to him & tell him that I don't think that we should be more than friends? I actually sent him a letter and a card yesterday saying that I'd like to try to possibly have a relationship on down the line, in time!!!!! (OMG) I don't want to upset him either cuz who knows what he might do after he gets out. Not that he will do anything, I just wonder. Now, I am scared. I think that I should get a P.O.Box in the next city over & tell him that I've lost my apt. cuz I can't afford the rent...or something like that so I can protect myself. I want him to think that I'm not living here anymore. What do you think??? I know...I should have used a P.O. Box in the first place.

I only wish that he would have been honest with me. Now that he's been dishonest & has totally lied to me, I'm not sure I want to even be friends w/ him. I dunno. ( He's been on parole before & had committed another crime and the article said that he got another 10-20 yrs. I believe that he may get out on parole early, but I'm about sure with his past record that he'll do it again. I don't think he'll ever change. If he does, that's good for him, but I don't want anything to do with him. Am I sounding too cruel here? I'm sorry to burden you with this long letter & my "jumping around with my thoughts" I'm just scared now. I have learned a very valuable lesson though, that I will only give a P.O. Box out from now on. Not sure how to handle this....

Thank You for listening to me.

Denise