"Stranger in a Strange Land"
I'm a forty three year old man serving his Nevada prison time here in the State of Illinois. In ‘97 I was involved in the killing of a man in Reno, Nevada. The similarity to Johnny Cash’s' song, ends there, though. It was a very bad time in my life and was the culmination of 10, out of control, drug-fueled years that ruined the relationship of one very dear to me, my wife, and strained the relationships of my family to the breaking point. My drug of choice was whatever was on hand, but my method of destruction was meth; been clean since April 25, 1997.
Drugs are available in prison; my (chemical) sobriety was a conscious decision. This choice being made because of the shame and guilt I felt at the person I had become. The wreckage of my past caused my soul to suffer for many years. The miasma of this guilt choked me and caused an anger to rise in me. I rebelled against the system and made a hard road even more difficult. I spent years in isolation after being involved in inciting two prison riots and numerous other things. At this point the state of Nevada made the decision to send me to any state that would accept me. In 2007, I was put on a plane and did not know where I was headed. Soon after, a death in my family changed my whole outlook on life, that and the inability to be able to be there to comfort my loved ones. This has been a transitional period in my life and I've been coming to terms with some deep and profound emotions.
Because of some other influences (good ones), I've come to realize that I feel like book missing a page (smile 'a' if you read that) and I'm really hoping to make a connection (friend), a genuine, honest one, with a woman.
If you've read this far you must have a heart of gold for not moving on to the next ad that caught your eye. I know I don't paint a pretty picture but my past doesn't define the essence of what I have become. As you can see I've overcome much and I am a better man today, for it. I have the love and support of my family. I'm not one of those inmates that is seeking to "run game' or hustle anyone for money. I am genuinely looking to make a connection with a good person, one who can help e remember life and the real things that matter. The only pictures I have are two old ones taken of an angry man in 2003. This is the person I was. I'm hoping you will decide to take a chance on the person I am now. As much as possible, in these few words, I've bared my heart and all I can do is offer you a genuine and honest person on this end.