I am curious to know the outsider’s perception on prison? Being treated unkindly in here makes me feel like the system is turning me worse instead of better. Sometimes I feel so lonely and depressed. The Texas Prison System is really sucking all the life out of me. I am currently incarcerated in a Maximum Security Unit and dealing with a lot of stress. The tunnel of light at the end always seems so far away. Sometimes I just feel like calling it quits. Wishing I were in the next dimension.
Do people really believe the media and prison officials that life is gravy and inmates are always treated humanely? Every day from my no paid slave labor job, the constant fights in the day room and abusive guards it seems like I am in a constant merry-go-round of Hell. One day will this all stop? I have come to acceptance of responsibility of my actions and truly sorry for the crimes I have committed, I just hope one day this will all end, literally. With the summers in Texas I feel physically and mentally like I am in Hell. I’m not at all religious, but am very spiritual and believe there has to be a purpose for me. Hoping I can connect with someone who is willing to listen and to be a friend. I am very open minded as a person and am nonjudgmental. Ask anything you want and I will respond. I would love to share my story.